How much of an unpleasant situation can someone stand?

For how long do they keep things bottled up before they explode? Before they go crazy?

And how many have actually kept in touch with school mates? I haven't. I talk to a few (one or two) but that's like once every couple of months.

And how pessimistic can someone be? Pessimistic or just plain realistic?

And how weak can someone be? And how many times can someone change their mood from one minute to the next? Within five minutes you get happy and then angry and then you shout at everyone and then you are happy again? Wtf? Is it all an act? Are you feeling guilty for the shouting and therefore you are all smile to make up for the shouting? Hoping that if you smile and talk nicely they will forget you were shouting at them for no reason at all 2 minutes ago?

Don't you get tired? One minute you are happy, the next you are shouting and then happy again and it goes on and on and on. Wtf? Do you get an adrenaline rush by doing that? Why do I have to put up with it? Why is it only with me that you act that way? Yes I am family but I didn't choose this. I always thought that I would wanna leave home because I would want my privacy. Without parents bugging me all the time. I never once thought I would wanna leave home because of you.

I don't wanna go crazy. I don't wanna start a fight. I've done that so many times thinking that I would manage to get through to you. But that got me nowhere. So tired of fighting. So tired of trying to restrain myself. I am so tired of this whole situation. Why don't you just grow up?


Do we all get what we deserve? Did you get what you deserve? Karma's a bitch? Or is that something we tell ourselves...thinking that there is justice in this world. The punishment might not come now but it will at some point.

And will you please stop being so full of yourself?